The cat and I are sitting by the gas fire enjoying each other’s company. Gently stroking her head and listening to her purring I am suddenly aware of a sentence drifting through my quiescent mind.
‘I am untamed by generosities.’ What could that possibly mean,’ I wonder. It nags at me throughout the day, it has thrown me off centre somehow. I am confused by it. Surely to be generous, as in kind, giving, open handed and magnanimous is more likely a means of creating tameness? To be untamed is to be wild and difficult to control.
I checked the etymology of generous, it comes from latin, genus – stock or race and generosis – noble / magnanimous. Taken in general sense : ‘of noble birth.’ Magnanimous is from latin, magnus – great and animus -soul.
It is on my daily walk, which for reasons various has occurred in the afternoon instead of the normal morning routine, that I finally give a mental shrug and throw the question out to one of my less ‘material’ friends. By this I mean what is conventionally called a spirit guide. “Caspar, what on earth does this sentence mean?’
He responds promptly, he has a good sense of humour and I get the feeling that he has quite enjoyed watching me do mental cartwheels to no avail. ‘To choose to be generous, to be kind and giving, to be forgiving is to enact a noble birth,’ he informs me. Generosity grants this material world a view of the great soul, that is a noble birth. True kindness may establish trust but it seeks not to confine or oblige in return for the expressions of kindness. Anything that expects some form of obligation to be established by apparent generosity is just a masquerade that seeks control as the end game. Generosity has the care and freedom of the recipient at its core. To be wild is to be free, not a slave to anyone or anything. Oddly, free has its root meaning in words that mean ‘to love.’
So when we choose to be generous or to accept with light heart and appreciation the generosities of others we free ourselves from the tyranny of our fear of lack, we acknowledge abundance and see our kinship. We are love in action and thus are wild and uncontrolled in a manner that serves all.
Copyright: Kim Parker 2021